As a lightworker, it’s been hard for me to fit in and feel safe expressing myself. I have always been a little “woo woo” and intuitive as far as I can remember, but no one knew this about me, not even my closest friends. I kept my thoughts and feelings inside for fear of being told I was too sensitive or even weird. My Mom was the only one who understood as she was an Astrologer when I was growing up. It can get very lonely being in the spiritual closet.
Most of my family doesn't know about my love of the Angels, or that I am a Certified Angel Card Reader and Angel Intuitive, they just wouldn't get it or accept it. I have friends that have known me for years; that have no idea about my intuitiveness or spirituality. It saddens me that I can not be my authentic self around some family and friends. I have learned to accept it and shield myself when I am around them with no talk of angels, angel card readings, spirit, divine, crystals and past lives.
My intuition about people is my compass. I could not live without it. Although I couldn't publicly embrace this beautiful quality of mine, I am so grateful for it. It has saved me from many harsh situations that may have otherwise damaged my gentle spirit. Oddly, people feel at ease and very comfortable with me, often telling me their life story and seeking advice, yet I do not openly identify as a spiritual lightworker to them. I listen to their problems and offer the advice that comes to me through feelings with no mention of angels or spirit guides.
I am turning 40 on March 4th and in the last two years my vibe has finally attracted my tribe!
#yourvibeattractsyourtribe The first time I ever felt I was with my people was at the I Can Do It! Conference in Pasadena by Hay House. A friend, who we refer to ourselves as witches, told me about the conference because she is a Caroline Myss fan and Caroline was speaking. I had just borrowed the book Anatomy of the Spirit from my fellow witch friend and was a believer. I had never heard of Hay House and just bought my first deck of Doreen Virtue angels cards a couple of months before. I discovered www.hayhouse.com for the first time and looked up the conference. I saw that Doreen Virtue was teaching her Certified Angel Card Reader class for the last time in person in my home city! That was a sign for me that I needed to attend. I had been giving readings to my friends that I felt safe with and who believed in my gifts, but to learn from the “Angel Lady” herself would fill my spirit. This class took my readings to a whole new level, and I started to charge for readings and do them for strangers!
When I walked into the room of the I Can Do It! Conference Certified Angel Card Reader course, I was extremely nervous! I took a deep breath and looked around the room. There were a lot of people there, and large crowds in the past had terrified me. Too much energy! I was an energy magnet, and it affected my feelings. I found my spot to sit and then this lady quickly sat next to me. She introduced herself. She was psychic and had been doing readings for a while. I don't identify myself as psychic, although I was told from my Mother’s astrologer at a young age and by a few other psychics that I was. “I’m a newbie at all this,” I told her. She tuned into me, and said, “you are not new at this. Your energy is amazing! You have so many angels around you. You are very psychic.” I have since learned from my psychic teacher that in a past life I was a gypsy in Romania that gave guidance to the Kings in secret! I identify myself as being clairsentience. I get a sense and feeling about things. At the end of the day, she thanked me for allowing her to sit next to me. She said that I had made this experience much more magical for her with my aura, and she gave me a crystal necklace that she had made. I knew after this class that I had met my tribe. These lovely earth angels were like me. I was like them. I was accepted, and I could be exactly who I was with no fear.
A year later I had the most amazing spiritual experience at Doreen Virtue’s Angel Intuitive conference in Orange County. It was a three-day conference with at least 500 + light workers, angel lovers, mediums, clairvoyants and just all around wonderful people with the highest vibrational energy from all over the world. I felt I was on a cloud in the divine. My crown chakra was up in the sky loving the vibration. I had to step outside a few times to ground myself in the grass. I met so many wonderful people that accepted me for exactly who I was meant to be, a Spirit Junkie lightworker. I have gone to lunch with some of these new friends and even visited one friend’s crystal shop in Sedona, called Follow Your Heart.
I never imagined that there were so many other people out there that believed the same as me on social media! At the Angel Intuitive conference, Doreen encouraged us to build a platform if we wanted to be Hay House authors. I started my spiritual Instagram account in Oct 2015 and four months later I have blown away with the love and support I have found there. So many wonderful people who support each other! Can you believe that? We support each other’s businesses, gifts and dreams right from the heart! I have connected with many other Angel Intuitive graduates from years ago, fellow Certified Angel Card Readers all through Social Media. We ask each other for help and support each other’s manifestations and intentions! If I were to make a post of a Daily Angel Card reading on my personal Instagram or Facebook I wouldn’t get any “likes,” and these are people that have met me live and in the flesh! I feel so much love from my spirit tribe, and connectedness that I never knew was possible. They have given me the confidence to write my book, Came to Believe and the support in building my platform. The only person in my family that knows I am writing a book right now is my Mother. 6400+ followers on Instagram 1000+ Twitter followers and 850 people on Facebook know about my book and are cheering me along the way.
Grateful is all I can say. Grateful I found my tribe. Grateful for all of you for giving me confidence. Grateful to have met such beautiful people all over the world. Your support is everything. Although I won’t be posting Angels, Wayne Dyer quotes and anything too sensitive on my personal social media anytime soon, I am so happy that at age 40 I can finally do me, be me and love me in a public way. What I hope for you, if you haven't found it already, is to find your community, your tribe and those who love you for exactly who you were meant to be!