Today, I am 40. The big 4-0! I don’t know about you, but growing up I was programmed by society to think that women should be married, have kids, live in a nice house, and have a yard with a cute dog by now. When I turned 35, not being married and having kids really stressed me out. Most of my high school friends were married with kids. I thought I wasn’t good enough and maybe I didn't deserve those things. I vowed, “By 40 I will have all of it and more!” Well, I am 40 and do not have all of it, but I do have much more including the cute dog! The cutest dog ever, by the way. My life bloomed into exactly how it was supposed to. I wouldn’t trade what I have today for what society thought I should be or what my ego told me I should of had by now.
My Mom was told when she was growing up that women do not go to college, they get married and have babies. She always wanted more for me, and I wanted more for myself. My Mom taught me to work hard, encouraged me to get a education and to never be dependent financially. When I graduated high school and completed two years of community college, I was one of the few of my friends to leave Arizona for a college education. My first major goal that I accomplished was getting a B.A. in Marketing in 1998. I was the first in my family to graduate from college and I paid for it entirely myself while working part time at Robinson’s May. I am proud of myself for this accomplishment. There are so many women I have met my age, who took the same route as me. It gives me comfort to know that I am not alone.
I worked hard my entire twenties and thirties in Retail and the Fashion Industry. I didn’t have time for relationships. I didn’t make the time. I went to New York often, I traveled to Europe, I lived in San Diego and Los Angeles. I experienced a lot of exciting things in my life, met some awesome individuals and have worked for some amazing companies, including the one I work for right now. I may not have met the perfect partner, settled down and had children but, I have to say, I feel my life is near perfect today. I am happy. I trust myself now. I believe in myself. I have super intuition. I am connected spiritually with the divine. I know I can accomplish anything with a positive attitude. I surround myself with people who encourage me and who I love. I practice self-care by going to yoga, journaling, and spending time outside in nature. I am living my life’s purpose. I love myself. Oh! and I can’t forget my angels. They are always there with their sensitive guidance. I can’t really ask for much more at 40.
This year is going to be magnificent and majestic! I am going to continue to work on my spiritual journey and recovery. I am going to take myself out of my comfort zone. I will continue to forgive myself and others. I will ask for help from others and my angels. I am going to be of service with a positive attitude, with no expectations from others. I am going to Hawaii for the first time! (!!!!!) I am going to finish my book, Came to Believe. I will win the Hay House writer’s course contest and my book will be published by Hay House. And while all these magical things are taking place, the right person may fall into my life when I least expect it!
I wanted to share with you the most perfect birthday card from my Mom today. This is what it said:
Stand tall and proud of where you are on life’s journey.
Celebrate the many ways you’ve grown wiser, deeper, stronger in spirit.
Know that your life has special meaning and that the purpose of your birthday is to honor the unique person you have become.