Even a Social Media Coach needs to close their social media for Spiritual Maintenance. Or in my case just stop posting on my newsfeed and engaging all together. ( I am not perfect in this detox, I have been posting Instagram Stories, because that is fun for me! ) I was worried about what kind of message my detox would send, but I was so depleted that I didn't care. I decided my self-care was more critical than my social media numbers. Before the launch of the Spirit Junkie Masterclass Digital, which I am an affiliate for I was doing pretty well with posting less, not engaging as much on my newsfeed, going through less and less hashtags and not playing the game to get more followers. My numbers have grown very little in the last year with my new self-care social media strategy. I wasn't sure how this would go over when all those things I was no longer doing was what I tell my clients to do if they want to grow their following with authenticity. Ya, it is super easy to buy followers and likes, and it's really easy to decipher the accounts that are doing it. I even thought, maybe I should do that while I take my social media detox, but I can't. It's just not me.
The last month has been hectic for me. I felt a lot of my energy going out; however, I wasn't refueling my tank. I was exhausted. I was grumpy and even falling into negative thought patterns mixed with a side of judgment. This wasn't a good look for me and made me feel worse. I was on social media like it was my full-time job posting about SJMC, engaging, liking, commenting, doing stories on all platforms on multiple accounts. Although I was speaking from my heart about something I believed in, it drained me emotionally and physically. I was already worn out from my trip to NYC and felt I was just going through the motions with a massive crash coming.
I was putting all of myself aside to be there for others. I wasn't writing my new book, This Too Shall Pass, I wasn't working on my own stuff, and I was barely making it to Kundalini Yoga and my Alanon meetings. I was doing things for other people, offering my skills, working hard, sleeping very little and spending a lot of money all while getting more and more resentful. Those who know me, know, this is not me. I love to help other people. But at this point, it was at my own cost. These are all classic signs of a grade A people pleaser. My energy was unbalanced.
"I balance being generous and receptive because
both are equally important."
- Mary, Queen of Angels.
The truth is when I got back from New York City I had taken a considerable step back in the recovery of my chronic feet issues. I had hurt another toe while in NY, and all the previous symptoms were magnified. And I said nothing; I kept working. I kept going for fear of disappointing people or being left out because I couldn't keep up. I went to the doctor to have X-rays done. I knew something wasn't right and I trust my body, I just don't always listen. The X-rays confirmed what I already knew. The 4th toes next to my pinkie toes are "floppy toes." Floppy toes can happen after multiple surgeries where the bone structure is lacking. Also, I haven't mentioned that the Morton's Neuroma removal surgery I had in February resulted in two stump neuromas to replace it. My feet were worse than ever, and I was frustrated with the pain! The medical bills piled up for a surgery that didn't work and I wanted to scream! I cried a lot and worked through some of those emotions. Good news is that acupuncture is helping! I focused on the positive. But this new diagnosis hit me. It is chronic. My doctor doesn't want to perform any more surgery. And I agree. I am over it.
So, the night before the last day of selling the Spirit Junkie Masterclass I decided to take care of me. I went off social media the night before the cart closed. I sent zero emails about it. I played with my dog. I went to Kundalini Yoga. I led an Alanon meeting. I went to therapy to talk about my anger and resentments. I got a psychic reading confirming my deep connection with my #1 spirit guide, my Grandma. I visited my friend Missy to lay in her crystal healing bed from John of God. I did all the things to recharge and take care of myself. I almost finished my chapter in my next book, ( It is a collection of hope and healing stories from alcoholic mothers and their daughters) and I cried. I cried a lot.
I decided I needed to start a Kundalini Meditation. I choose Long Ok Ong Kars for nine mins a day for 40 days to Jai Jagdeesh's "Laya Yoga" from her album Come Down the Walls. This is a mantra for liberation, and it helps you to get the closest you can get to your Creator. I wanted that. Visit here on how to do this Mediation.
I am not sure how long my Social Media detox will last. I am already itching to come back, but for now, I am going to keep on keeping on. I am going to finish all my work in This Too Shall Pass. I am going to take the next indicated right action. I am going to get another opinion on my feet; I'm going to the beach to ground myself, get a facial, continue to work with my Social Media clients and work on forgiving myself for the repercussions of giving away my energy. My Social Media platform will be fine. My social media coaching business will be fine. It won't be the end of the world because I didn't get followers and likes during my time off.
I learned a valuable lesson this month. I am in charge of what I am willing to do. If I can't say no, knowing the energy of what I am giving is more than I am receiving, then I can't have resentments. I can't get angry and upset. Next time I get to choose better. Next time I will recognize when things are balanced or unbalanced. Next time I will know when enough is enough.
St. Francis of Assisi said, "For it is in giving, that we receive." Yes, I still believe this with all my heart.