"Yesterday’s the past, tomorrow’s the future, but today is a gift. That’s why it’s called the present.” Bill Keane
I have a confession to make. I am having the most difficult time remaining present these days. I am beating myself up about it because of old behavior of wanting to be perfect. Well, I am not perfect, so now I am just in acceptance. With all these tasks, thoughts and fun things swirling about in my brain and heart, I feel like I am running in a hamster wheel. Usually, when I pull a card for my Instagram, I connect with it but don't necessarily think it’s a message specifically for me. When “Be Present” from Kris Carr Crazy Sexy Love Notes came up recently, it was for me. Thank you, angels.
I have a lot going on right now. As we all do. I am preparing to go to the Spirit Junkie Master Class with Gabby Bernstein in June. My sister is coming to visit in May. My Mom and niece are coming to visit right when I get back from NYC. I am working on my book and writing my book proposal. And!!! So pumped about this, I have my big Maui trip to see Doreen Virtue and Nancy Levin at the Hay House Reclaiming Your Assertiveness and Self-Worth: A Retreat for Women in October.
This is all wonderfully exciting things to look forward to. The problem is, I am not enjoying what is in front of me at this moment. I am projecting rather than occupying my mind with the beautiful things that are happening right now. For example, right this minute, my adorable Shih Tzu, Chester keeps trying to crawl up my chest to give me kisses as I am typing this. But, my Macbook is in his way. He is getting super frustrated, growling and demanding my attention. It is freaking adorable to watch. The warmth that he is giving me at this very moment is pure love. Who would want to miss out on pure love and a little bit of drama?
I got real with myself. I decided to be vulnerable and talk about it. I mean, how can I post a card about being present and not own up to the fact that I am living months ahead? Some of you may know that I am a grateful member of Alanon. We talk about staying present all the time. Lately, I have forgotten all about it. I decided to bring it back to basics with the steps that have helped me to stay present in the past. I hope they help you too.
Meditate. I know, meditation can be hard for some of us. Before, I couldn’t meditate for the life of me. I would have rather stabbed my eyes out with spoons than to meditate and quiet my monkey mind. Today, I am usually the most successful meditating in a Kundalini Yoga class. But, recently I have found some meditations on iTunes by Louise Hay, Doreen Virtue, and Gabby Bernstein that I play on repeat. I also can meditate with no mind distractions when I am listening to Kundalini music by Snatam Kaur or Nirinjan Kaur. I have made myself a playlist and called it “Kundalini Serenity” on my iPod. A crystal that helps with meditation is fluorite. I just bought a gorgeous fluorite today at a flea market! I didn’t even know what it helped with until after I bought it! Serendipity!
Turn things over to my Higher Power, which for me is God and the angels. If I find myself stressing out about outcomes and forcing solutions for things that just need to wait for divine timing, I will release them to my angels. I have mentioned a God Box before. I write these things down on a piece of paper and put them into my God Box. This helps me to let them go, stop obsessing and enjoy my day.
Stop the monkey mind. I wish you could hear the internal chatter in my mind. You’d think I was crazy. If I notice myself doing this, I can stop it by describing to myself what is going on at that very minute in my life. Even if it is as simple as “I am getting my toothbrush. I am putting the toothpaste on my brush so I can begin brushing my teeth.” Doing this may seem silly, but it does help my mind to stay in the now. Again, Fluorite is an excellent crystal to turn off the chatter in your mind.
Say the Serenity Prayer. Then, say it again. “God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.” I wouldn’t say I was a religious person; I am spiritual. However, this prayer speaks to me like no other I have heard. It helps me to keep it simple.
I am so grateful that my angels brought this to my attention. I don't want to miss out on Shih Tzu kisses, a stranger smiling at me on the street or perhaps an angel message all because I wasn't present.
“If you are depressed you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present.” -Lao Tzu