I had a hard lesson in letting go these past few months. I am the first to admit I much prefer to force solutions rather than sit in the discomfort of the unknown. When I am in this discomfort and forcing my will, anxiety plagues me and wow, I am not connected to my Higher Power. My ego has crept in and instilled some serious fear in my soul. Why did I let this happen? I wish I would have trusted in my angels. I can beat myself up about it over and over, or I can choose differently next time.
After I had chosen differently, I filled my God Box up with all sorts of things I needed to let go recently. The main thing was a Hawaii trip. I had booked a Hawaii Trip back in January this year for the Hay House Writer's Workshop in June this year. Because of my mad manifesting skills, Doreen Virtue gifted me the Hay House Online Writer's Course in February this year. I was so grateful! The online course inspired me to believe in my abilities as a writer and introduced me to my spiritual teacher, Gabby Bernstein. And we all know how much this woman has changed me into a miracle maker. I truly believe this was my angels at work for so many reasons. I wasn't meant to take the class in Hawaii. But, what was I supposed to do with this Hawaii trip? As one of my friends reminded me, "It's a quality problem to have, to have to go to Hawaii." Here is where I forced a solution back in January and changed the reservation to October this year without thinking things through and letting my Higher Power fix this. I even sucked up a $200 change fee that the travel agency said they would waive but decided to charge my card for five months later. I should have just left it alone and waited to rebook it, I mean I had five months to figure this shit out. But, no my ego told me to fix it right away, rather than put God in charge. Now, I can't go in October either and I just wished I could get the money back as I had spent so much money already this year on trips, workshops, and my business. The travel company that I booked with told me the hotel was refundable, so I thought okay, I would call to get a refund on the hotel and hold the flight reservation until another time. When I called to do this, again forcing a solution, the travel agency changed their mind and would not refund me for the hotel. Now, what? I am sure you all are thinking, "Tara, why are you fighting going to Maui?" Looking back, I am asking myself that same question. Rather than to beat myself up about it, I chose to forgive myself. I am meant to go to Hawaii just not for the writer's course! I finally surrendered. I called in my angels, prayed about it, and put it in my God box about five times and then ten more times. Progress not perfection. The important thing was I was "willing" to turn it over to a power outside of myself, even it was about 15 times. Next time, I will do better. I will choose again.
I finally heard divine guidance this week about the Hawaii trip in my meditation during kundalini yoga class. My angels told me I needed to experience the magical energy of Maui as it would help me with writing my book, Came to Believe. Plus, I have never been to Hawaii! Not only did they tell me that I should not deny myself this beautiful trip, but they also gave me direction on how to make it all work financially.
I am not working right now. I am back out on medical leave for my feet surgeries, and I am due to go back to work October 1st. I felt horrible about coming back to work, which has been so supportive of me and then one week later saying, "Peace out, I am headed to Hawaii for a week," depleting my vacation hours. With the help of my angels, I decided to change the trip to next week, for a shorter time and less expensive resort still saving myself a good chunk of money even while paying another $200 change fee. I can ground my poor feet in the sand, relax, lay on the gorgeous beaches of Maui, and write my book. While I am soaking in the mystical Maui, I am also really looking forward to clearing my head and making space for more divine guidance on how I should proceed from here with my Social Media Coaching Business which by the way has been so freaking amazing! In the last three weeks, I have helped over ten spiritual entrepreneurs with their social media, and it feels wonderful!
So, Angels and Higher Power, what I let go to you today is my Social Media Coaching Business for Spiritual Entrepreneurs. I trust that you will fully support me energetically, spiritually and financially as I transition into this business that absolutely fulfills me, inspires me and allows me to be of service to like-minded individuals, my spirit tribe.
So, next time you start to feel that anxiety creep in, and that unsettled stomach, ask yourself, "What am I trying to control?" and "Is my Higher Power better suited to handle this situation?" Once you can answer these questions, then surrender and let go, let God and watch the miracles unfold. I will do the same.
Feel free to comment below on what you would like to let go. You can use the comment section below as your God Box. Trust me, your guides, angels, and Higher Power got this. You will be taken care of.