What's Your Sign, Baby? And I am not talking about Zodiac signs. :) I am talking about signs from the Divine, your Angels, and the Universe. I have heard from Gabby Bernstein to ask for a sign when you are looking for direction from the Universe. Some people have the same sign for every question like coins or feathers. This past weekend at Kripalu, when I spent some time with my Spirit Junkie family at Gabby Bernstein'sThe Universe Has Your Back Summer Retreat, I heard some really fun signs from my sisters: a dragon, a green car, specific numbers, and elephants. My signs are different for each time I am asking for guidance. It can either be a specific song on the radio or butterfly to name a few. And I have to admit; I often challenge my signs asking for double and triple confirmation as if the first time I was given the sign wasn't enough.
When I was at lunch at Kripalu with my friends, I was asking them for the guidance of what color I should wear for my book cover photo shoot for my spiritual memoir, Came to Believe. Susie first suggested I wear pink; then she suggested I wear cobalt blue. I knew I didn't want to wear pink, so that was easy. White was also a color I was considering. With cobalt blue, my ego immediately kicked in and said, "Tara, you can not wear cobalt blue. Gabby Bernstein......New York Times Best Selling Author, Gabby Bernstein is wearing cobalt blue in her upcoming book cover for The Judgement Detox!" I actually said this to my friends. They looked at me like I was crazy. Susie said, "well let's ask for a sign." We first started with linking my thumbs and index fingers together and pulling them apart when I said each of the colors, white and cobalt blue. If the fingers pull apart, then it's a, "no." If they stayed together in the link, it is a "yes." With cobalt blue my fingers stayed locked; it was a yes. You would think one would be satisfied with that sure fire sign. But, it wasn't enough for me.
My friends suggested, "let's flip a coin." We decided that heads would mean I wear cobalt blue and tails would mean I'd wear white. I flipped two heads in a row. I still wasn't convinced.....so I said, "let's do three out of five." The third flip... heads. It was looking pretty strong for cobalt blue. But I still questioned it because my ego was telling me that I could not wear cobalt blue.
I proclaimed to my friends, "okay, okay.. if Gabby plays Painter by Lapsley in the afternoon session then I will wear cobalt blue." Then I changed my mind. "No, I can't choose that song because Gabby usually plays that song, so the sign is a little weak." My friends just stared at me like, "Girl, you cray!" So, I changed my song, "Okay, Okay, if she plays Grace of God by Gurunam Singh then I will wear cobalt blue." It was settled and I felt pretty strongly this was my sign.
We went into the afternoon session, and somehow I forgot about my signs. I sat down in easy pose with my hands in Gyan mudra settling in for a sweet afternoon meditation. The first song Gabby played.... Painter by Lapsley. I turned to Lisette, "Omg." Lisette said something along the lines that I should trust my third request for a sign in the song Painter, and I am good to wear cobalt blue. I looked over at Suzie who looked straight at me with these big eyes, mouthing, "see??" The next song Gabby played? I shit you not, Grace of God by Gurunam Singh. I grabbed Lisette's leg and laid my head on her shoulder and said, "Oh My God," with tears building in my eyes.
"See!" Lisette assured me, "Cobalt Blue." AsGrace of God played, the emotion became overwhelming to me, and I began to cry, really hard. I let the tears run down my face, and I didn't sensor them. I didn't care who saw me. They were real, and this was my authentic truth at that moment.
There were few reasons for my beautiful tears. I told my friends this was a sign for me wearing cobalt blue, but it was more than that. I also secretly asked my angels for this sign if my book was going to move the masses. That is all I really want with this book, to move people with my story. The song echoed in the the auditorium as I cried out of happiness and gratitude for my angels understanding me and not getting frustrated with my questioning their ability to provide me Divine guidance.
The other reason why this song brought so much emotion out of me at that moment? There is a line in the song:
“It’s time to leave the past behind. Just let go, let’s unwind. Ease your body, rest your mind. Go within, see what we find.”
This line is typed out on the last page of my book. I had forgotten this when asking for this sign. It wasn't just a sign for cobalt blue. It wasn't just a sign that Came to Believe will move the masses and help people. It was my sign that by telling my story I can finally ease my body, rest my mind. I can go within and see what I find.
Get on the waitlist for Came to Believehere. My hope is that it will be published by November 2017 through Create Space.